The new year couldn’t have come at a better time. Last year, 2018 had all of the hardships one could take. I completed my last year of college and passed my clinicals. Needless to say I finally graduated college which was a goal i set back in 2006 when I was first diagnosed with cancer. Turns out life had other plans for me. It was around the same time that I had a MRI scheduled to make sure things were going well still. At that time it had been close to 5 months of no seizures. I received a phone call later that week on the morning of my graduation day asking me to come in the very next day not to see the nurse practitioner but to see my actual neurologist. When things like that happen out of nowhere that normally isn’t a good thing. I kept it from my parents and asked my brother to take me the next morning and to keep it a secret. He agreed and dropped me off the very next morning for my appointment. Turned out to be one of those appointments where I should have had somebody with me. I didn’t want to tell my parents about the appointment bc I didn’t want to get the worried before I graduated. I have been through so much up till that point in my life and my parents have been there for it all. We needed a win. My parents needed it more for me than I did at that point. So I kept it from them.
Now back to the appointment. Turns out it was not an appointment to go to alone. My doctor was even a little upset with me since I did. Now mind you at this point I thought at most I was just going to hear that my tumor is growing. But my worst fear came true. A whole new tumor grew back. Now I got to start the tumor process over again with surgery where I end up finding out it wasn’t just any tumor but more of a grade 4 glioblastoma. Which then I’m told its a terminal tumor. Devastation is an understatement. Instead of graduating and going on to a career. I got thrown into a battle for my life. Right now I’m proud to say I am winning that battle. Sometimes what you set out for your life to be doesn’t happen. For me I’m rolling with the punches and living the best life that’s possible for me.