You’re torn between is it my job to reach out for help/do I wait for it and should I accept help. You keep asking yourself, were they actually asking and talking to me because they care or because they don’t know what else to say while also feeling like they should say something at least. Your mind just plays games and twists everything because you don’t know what is truth and honesty anymore.
It’s things like these thoughts that have gone through my head durning my cancer battles. This battle seems to bring out these thoughts even more with being older and seeing the world continue to move while you “STAND STILL” yet again. But I will be right back on that same track soon enough.
Side note… hair is growing back in a new style.