You’re torn between is it my job to reach out for help/do I wait for it and should I accept help. You keep asking yourself, were they actually asking and talking to me because they care or because they don’t know what else to say while also feeling like they should say something at least. Your mind just plays games and twists everything because you don’t know what is truth and honesty anymore.
It’s things like these thoughts that have gone through my head durning my cancer battles. This battle seems to bring out these thoughts even more with being older and seeing the world continue to move while you “STAND STILL” yet again. But I will be right back on that same track soon enough.
Side note… hair is growing back in a new style.
Back in June 2006, the summer before my senior year of high school I started this rollercoaster ride and was diagnosed with Leukemia. Then fast forward two years of treatment with chemo and a few hip surgeries including having both my hips replaced. I still managed to graduate high school in 2007 while fighting cancer and treating. I took 2 years college tuition as my make a wish and determined right there that I was going to beat cancer and be a college graduate. But little did I know that I was going to have another fight with cancer in the form of brain tumor come May 2013. A Grade II astrocytoma to be precise. I ended up having to put college on the back burner to fight this battle and I came out on top again. Now what brings me to why I'm starting this blog. I recently managed to fulfill my dream and graduated college on May 9th 2018. Unfortunately only to find out the very next day that my tumor had come back and appeared to be a higher grade.
